What’s been happening in my life lately. FOOD. I feel like I’m constantly eating, but i guess that’s how it goes right? I have to do it to get healthy and have my life back. Might as well enjoy it?
I am somewhat mimicking inpatient, for meals and snacks. 3&3, is this what others have done in recovery/weight gain? I feel like i need some gratification that this is normal, and I should be eating this much, I know its true, but in a weight-loss & low-fat diet focused world, I feel like an alien from another planet. Surprisingly, I am not overly full or stuffed. I guess that is a way of my body telling me it is using the nutrition I put in every couple hours, and that it does in fact need it to survive.
I’ve been finishing up shopping, wrapping, baking, and most recently, Elf-watching. Love that movie. The relatives are coming into town today, so it will be a full house for the next few days. They’re actually Jewish, but they like to come up for skiing, since they have the time off, and Hannukah is over. It will be nice to have more people around for the holidays, most years it is just my dad, brother, and I at home.
I want to be back in Paris, I went last spring break with a school tour group. It was fun, but unfortunately I relapsed while there and it put me back in the hospital. But, I did have a great experience i will never forget. One day I will go back ❤
Another motivation to recover. I do not need anorexia in my life anymore. Ever.
Where do you want to travel to? & What keeps you motivated?