It’s official, Wednesday is the day I turn 18, I can buy porn! jk. I never guessed I’d be spending my birthday on an eating disorders inpatient ward, on my third admission. Wow.
I mean its not all bad, at least I have some good friends here. I definatley won’t be out partying and getting my drank on. But hey, that’s okay. I have time for that in first year of uni, where I will truly enjoy fun nights out cause I will be healthy, energetic, and happy.
I don’t have anything new to talk about, except the fact that I am gaining weight. I don’t have much therapy going on, but it helps much anyways. Sometimes it feels like Im just here eating all day, with a bit of schoolwork, and art here and there. How do you cope in recovery? When so much time spent on consuming food.
My heart goes out to those gaining at home, I don’t know how you manage, not being in a program that forces you. It’s amazing how much recovering anorexia sufferers have to eat. 3500 calories, so much intake! But keep fighing, I’m not at 86% of my ideal weight and I have more energy, can focus on school, and I laugh all the time.