Wow, that weekend sure wizzed by. Not that I really notice, seeing as I’m already in summer mode. [ minus finishing up chemisrty12]
My days have been filled with; sleeping in till around 830,making & eating warm oatmeal bowls, blog-reading, random errands/shopping, eating some more,yoga, thinking about eating,chemistry, thinking about what I’ll be eating, walking, reading, and au-pair job searching.
Productive, huh? 

I loveeeee fro-yo.

Amanda wrote an amazing post on hunger, which made me realize that what I am most certainly not doing.
Honouring my hunger. Anorexia makes me stick to rigid rules of mealtimes and restiction which I so badly want to break free of. The only way it’s gonna happen is if I Just Do It.

I have started to eat turkey and fish again, I think I got pulled into vegetarianism from the blog world to be honest. I don’t think it’s doing me any good staying away from such nutritous sources of iron and protein that my body so badly needs to build its strength back.

Healthy body inspiration.

So, I’m pulling myslef out of this rut, because being let’s face it being  hungry all the time is no way to live.

So, let’s eat!

& as for the au-pair job; I have three families considering to hire me. 🙂 I can’t decide which I’d prefer!

Do you have any just do it victories?


13 thoughts on “Summah

  1. Ick. There’s nothing worse than dealing with being hungry all the time. I don’t know how I did it for so long, because I can’t handle it at all anymore. I think it’s great that you’re giving your body the nutritious food that it wants instead of trying to follow the popular example shown around the blog world. Vegetarianism definitely isn’t for everyone, and it’s best to do what works for you individually 🙂

    My whole recovery is pretty much a collection of just do it victories. The only way to overcome something is to just get it over with and see that nothing bad happens. If you keep planning, and waiting, you’ll just waste more time because it’s never going to feel right. Nike was definitely on to something…

  2. I really liked this, and Amanda’s post. Its true, and I know I’m still doing the same thing…. If its not a certain time on the meal plan, I’m still really unsure if I should eat when I am hungry… but this helps because I mean, if you’re hungry… you should eat! I am proud of you love 🙂

  3. I’m so happy for you that you have three families wanting to hire you! Congrats!!

    I also think it’s a very, very, very bold move for you to start eating meat again and to realize that you want to do it instead of trying to “fit in” with the blog world. That takes a lot of courage and desire to do and I’m glad you made that decision! I wish I could go back sometimes but the ethics have gotten the best of me (which does not mean AT ALL that you lack ethics just because you eat meat, I hope that’s not how that sounds!)

    Keep going with this progress, it’s amazing. ^_^

  4. Congrats on the job offers!

    Also congrats on the meat eating again. It was something I had to do in recovery too. I needed to have no banned foods in order for me to accept food as being a good, nourishing thing again. You should be proud of being strong and recognising that it’s something you and your body need.

    Hope you have a wonderful week! 🙂 xx

  5. Congrats on the job offers and eating meat again. It’s pretty exciting. I remember going like 12 hours in between meals and now I can hardly go 3. I don’t know how I did it. You’re certainly making a lot of progress. Kudos!

  6. That froyo looks beautiful, I’m not gonna lie! Congrays on eating meat again! You’ll be glad when you’re strong and healthy!
    Just Do it is like my life mantra. It has really helped me when I’m nervous about races. I just repeat that to myself and it makes the whole thing seem no big deal. It takes away the pressure, ya know?

  7. so exciting that you have those offers!!
    I think that listening to your body is such a big step – absolutely one of the kindest things that you can do for yourself xxxx

  8. I am proud of you Laura for being determined to handle this problem, right now. It is a scary thing to do after becoming accustomed to “enjoying” hunger, but we HAVE and MUST learn to honour our hunger by actually eating. Not just feeling it, but doing something about it. Our mind and body will benefit so much from it, since starting to eat what is right for me I’ve noticed a significant decrease in my troublesome food- thoughts – I am able to participate in life again.

    I also think it is admireable that you give your body the nutrients it needs, it is difficult for us to know for sure what influences our food choices at this stage in life. Becoming a vegetarian while our mind battles anorexia can be just another form of limiting our diet, which clearly is not the right motivation for being a vegetarian.

    Stay strong – you can do this 🙂 How exciting with the job offers, use that as a motivation to keep making steps in the right direction. You need your health to go abroad and work.

  9. Wow that’s great that you have three families wanting to hire you! Congrats!

    Good for you for recognizing what your body needs. It’s easy to get sucked into blog trends or to try to be like other bloggers. You’re really brave to take a step back and realize what works for you.

  10. I am so proud of you on so many levels 🙂 introducing some meats back into your diet is a great thing! It is really a great step forward 🙂 And having two families ready to hire you! That is AMAZING! I am immensely excited for you 🙂

    Have a wonderful day ❤


  11. Hi! Just came across your blog….great post and very inspiring. It’s great that you’re dealing with everything and listening to what your body needs. Congrats on the jobs!! so exciting!

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