sunday mornings

Rain is not falling. Sunshine is out. Happy Sunday =)

I’m enjoying myself with strawberry-blueberry-vanilla-oats, alongside a mug of fair-trade peruvian coffee, black.

I have been stuck in a slump this month trying to inspire myself to recover and push through, but it hasn’t been successful inΒ  the past, so I’m trying something new, and just going with he flow. I have my last op appt. with my therapist tomorrow, I said my good-byes to my dietitian on friday. This summer, like i said before is my chance to take my life in my own hands and go, shall I say, in the direction of my dreams. I am graduating in two days, going to prom, and then I have a nanny job that I have been striving towards for a long time. I have so much ahead of me, no time for this ed bullshit. I’m sick of torturing my parents, and myself.

I’m holding myself accountable. I want to prove to not only my family who have stuck by my side, but myself.


I’m loving this happiness site; I read The Happiness Project while stuck in a hospital bed for a week before going to ip, and forgot about it until recently.It’s a good reminder to stay focused on my concrete goals and what I need to be truly happy; my passions, family, friends, laughter. {not ed}

Also, I am starting a 19 before 19 list. huh, what’s that?
A list of things I want to accomplish before i turn 19 in April. I figure I will work harder to reach them if I only have a year to accomplish them than a bucket list i forget about in a week. I think I’ll make a separate page for it, and cross them out as I go, but here’s a sneak peak;
-Eat 2 scoops of real ice cream on a waffle cone at the local parlor. {more than once}
-Further delve into creative side: painting, drawing,clay,artsy stuff.
-Be more social, find your true friends, createΒ  loyal & meaningful connections.

…to be continued…

No idea what flavour this is? looks tasty though.

Do you like waffle cones? I hate reading those tips; ‘save 100 calories, don’t order a waffle cone.
Why not?


12 thoughts on “sunday mornings

  1. I’m working on a 21 before 21 list! Finishing the list is one of the 21 things… so I best get on that pretty soon. πŸ˜›

    Here’s something I’ve learned, and I hope you take the time to think about it: Our country is in a state of very poor health, most Americans eat like crap and don’t exercise at all. So all of those health messages, “Eat this, save calories!” “Don’t have the waffle cone, order a small!” “Butter and saturated fat is bad! Pasta is bad! Exercise 30 minutes a day!”, they’re ALL geared toward America as a whole. It’s sad that certain people like us take all of this advice and actually listen to it when we’re the last people that really need to! You’re not in that group of people who doesn’t care about their body, you’ve already proven that – keep up going with what you feel like doing and I wish you a wonderful prom and a great time with the nanny job.

    And yes, waffle cones are the best. πŸ˜‰

  2. I love the 19 before 19 list! I’m also loving that you’re pushing yourself to become better. I think you have wonderful things ahead of you in your future πŸ™‚
    Waffle cones are the bomb. No questions asked.

  3. I love waffle cones, but it’s always cheaper not to get one. I guess I can indulge every now and again. I love the idea of a list. I’m just waiting to turn 18 this fall.

    Congrats on wanting to take charge of your life. That’s really great.

  4. You’d better be environmentally friendly and take the waffle cone πŸ™‚ . And you can always save those 100 calories (if you think you have to do it at all) from something else that you don’t enjoy that much.

    Have a wonderful prom!

  5. I love the idea of a 19 before 19 list! And I am so excited for your graduation! Having these goals before you, and a healthy plan for the summer, it is going to be an amazing next year πŸ™‚

  6. Love the list and can’t wait to read more! πŸ™‚ I have a countdown to 30 list (since I’m 28) and it’s fun to have a bit more motivation to try new things! πŸ™‚

  7. I hate those adds too! If we crave a cone, then I am 100% convinced our bodies will survive those extra calories. It pisses me off to see how society reduces food to just being about calories – it is so much more than that! Food is life, it is fun, love, health, strength, freedom.

    I am very proud of you for your positive attitude, my friend. Recovery is hard, but you keep trying to hold on to what is positive and to focus on your hopes and dreams. They are yours, and you have every right to experience all that you dream of. ED is not to take away this, because you are a beautiful and unique person who is worthy of love and life.
    I am sure you’ll face challenges this summer, but then try to remind yourself of your past victories and see them as a symbol of your strength. You are able to fight through the battles, and we both know how much better a free life is than an existence controlled by forces who ultimately wants to kill us.

    Take care – I am here for you πŸ™‚

  8. Your oats look so good.

    I know recovery seems like a hard and scary journey. But I want to tell you that it’s 100% worth it. Sooner than you know you will look back on your goals and you will be so proud of yourself for accomplishing them. You CAN do this!

  9. think I will make a 22 before 22 list!
    Your attitude is really beautiful, taking responsibility for ourselves is the true path to recovery, I think. And I am sure that you will achieve all that you want to xxxxx

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