7 Sleeps

Seven more sleeps until I make the big move to my new city.
A fresh awakening, a new start, a beggining that I’ve been waiting for.
I am beyond excited, as well as nervous and scared.
But, I feel good about this, and though my health may not be in the state it should be,
I am fighting to get there and am determined to not let ed ruin a great opportunity.
I remember Oprah’s words of wisdom: ‘Education is the key to unlocking the world, a passport to freedom.’
& I beleive them to be true. Education can take you so far, and I have this opportunity so I will use it to my greatest advantage.
I want so badly to reach my top potential, and not to succumb myself to a life lead by anorexia.
I want to steer my own ship and find my true self in the process.


In ode of these last days of summer, I need to start challenging myself now,so I can reach all of my aspirations, goals;
whatever you wanna call ’em.
I have not been doing monthly goals lately because my main focus was on my health and weight gain.
And, seeing how that isn’t getting very far, I’ve decided to break it down into smaller steps, babysteps, to make better progress.
I realize I will be undergoing some majour changes as soon as I move into a dorm;
-I won’t have so much alone time, I’ll constantly be surrounded by other students, teachers, and generally have more social interactions. This is definatley a plus, as I’ve been kind of lonely.
-My routine will be drastically different; a full course load, homework, reading, trying to participate and be involved in extra cirricular stuff, make new friends, and meet new people.

 Yeah, definatley no time to deal with or even think of pleasing eds desires.

-No more leisurley waking up at 830 and making stove-top nanner oats; Cafeteria food.
I am thankful that there is a whole cafe devoted to veggie’s/vegan’s & healthy food, so at least I will always know there’s options I like.
That being said, I do want to be okay with having pizza and ‘normal’ stuff that my peers will be eating.
Heck, I hope I gain the so-called “freshman 15.”


I am beyond excited and cannot wait for this new chapter of my life to begin.
Are you undergoing any new begginings? please share 🙂


6 thoughts on “7 Sleeps

  1. You are so brave, my dear 🙂
    And you know, the grades are far from everything. Just the fact that you are now able to attend Uni and even feel a sense of excitement and joy is a major sign of you separating from ED – be so very, very proud.

    I know it will be hard, but I also know you got what it takes to handle it. The first period will probably be the hardest, dealing with not only one change, but several ones. They are not dangerous though, take deep breathes and do as you say – take it step by step. To break down recovery in a million and three steps is the best way, otherwise we often end up feeling completely overwhelmed and loose our hope and inner spark.
    How about starting with switching up your usual oat for something else for breakfast? To train yourself in eating and eventually feeling comfortable with a more variated diet.

    Do you have facebook btw? If you do, I would be so glad if you wanted to add me 🙂 That way we can support each other through the semester and send strength and love.
    If you do, feel free to send me a mail and I’ll add you 🙂

    Thinking of you ❤

  2. You’re going to do well Laura! I hope you love it at University. We’ll both be experiencing this new season in life at the same time. How odd ^-^

    Hope you like your classes too, that is key to happy schooling life. Maybe? Probably! Friends and leisure activities contribute a lot too. Be sure to make a few to spend time studying, eating, playing, and talking with. Live Life Missy!

  3. You’re going to do great! :] I’m excited for you and I’m sure the new beginning will be a good change. I’m starting school again too. I’m not so excited about changing my wake up time, but oh well 😀 There’s not much I can do about it. Good luck!!

  4. New beginnings can alway be so exciting and scary at the same time. It’s like your emotions are on conflicting terms. I’m not undergoing any new beginnings, but I wish you luck with yours. I’m sure it will take time to get used to having people around all the time, and eating cafeteria food, but I’m sure you will adapt to what works for you 🙂

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