more to life

I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again…
I spend much of my time alone.

This used to bother me a whole awful lot. In fact, it was one of the triggers of my ed.
Now that’s in the past, and I enjoy my solitude without putting my health in danger.Β most of the time.
However, there are days when I yearn for human connection.
Some days I want more than just the yoga studio chatter or a friendly smile of a passerby.
Human interaction is a powerful thing,
that is, generally taken for granted.

That may have sounded a tad melodramatic, but it is so true.
With each encounter of another being, you are impacting their life, whether it be significant or not.

What’s all this trivial jabber about social interactions… or lack thereof?
I have just moved into my dorm for the fall semester at uni! Yes, I live in a dormroom.
On the bright side it’s quiet a bit larger than last years’, but unfortunately it’s in a much older building.
Anyhow, I moved in early so I am alone for now, but on Sunday this place will be packed.
No more isolation, I refuse to let myself be a hermit like I did first year.
I finally am finding a sense of myself,Β without ed.

Now, it’s time to make time for others. Relationships.
There’s no more time for me to be scared.
Because there’s too many amazing people I have yet to encounter.

15 thoughts on “more to life

  1. Oh,I so know what you mean by social isolation. I have huge problems with this,too,I truly struggle with social awkwardness. I hope with my training starting next month,this will change a bit. I need to get out and live a life.

  2. i can relate to this! it’s like you’re pulling words from my mouth. I too am intimidated by thought of building real lasting relationships with people other than family.

    have fun this semester! you’re going to meet great people πŸ™‚

  3. Sounds like you are in a single dorm, but if you have a good roommate it can really be a blessing. Last year, I got a random roommate who is one of my best friends and he helped me meet a bunch of other people too. I would just duck out when ever they would go to a big party. Good luck though, I can relate.

    • Yes, I am in a single. It has been been pretty well so far. I am not too into the whole party scene, so it’s more of a challenge meeting people. Thanks for stopping by!

  4. I just found your blog via Peanut Butter and Jenny and I have to say that this post really resonated with me. I know that isolation is a huge, huge trigger for my depression, anxiety, and eating disorder. I’m still learning to be okay with being on my own, and honestly, I don’t think I’m doing a great job so far. It’s also so confusing that when I fall into that pattern of destructive behaviors, I also willingly isolate myself, so it’s kind of a vicious cycle. I’m glad that you’re recognizing your struggle with this, though, and I hope that we can both figure something out. It’s important to learn how to be on your own…someone’s not always going to be there, and learning to have yourself should be enough…we are enough.

    • Thank-you for checking out my blog Debbie, I am sorry that you are dealing with this too. I agree we shouldn’t depend on others, I think I’ve got that down. I just need to learn to stop the isolation cycle. ❀

    • Thanks for stopping by my blog! I read some of your posts about your time in Victoria; We shop at the same places πŸ˜‰ & I agree with you on the world WF situation.
      Why did you move back after a year, if you dont mind me asking?

  5. First time reader so. Hi!
    I just had to comment seeing as you touched a subject so close to my everyday life in a great way. I don’t enjoy being alone, either, yet still find myself not being as outgoing or open towards other people as I’d like to. There’s the lingering fear of being dismissed …

    • Thanks for stopping by!
      While I do enjoy being alone at times, sometimes I spend too much time alone. But im working on it, slowly but surely. You can too. All great things take courage πŸ™‚

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